I'm a snoozing machine

Imma be honest, I sleep a lot.

Napping is one of my favorite hobbies, and I think I'm quite good at it.

In all seriousness though, sometimes I sleep to turn off the bad thoughts. Which in some ways is good, and others not.

For instance, if I'm having an anxiety attack close to bed time, I'll try to just fall asleep. And whenever I wake up in the morning, I feel well again.

I feel like maybe it becomes a problem when I purposefully take naps during the day to shut off my OCD brain. I know sleeping is great for you, but it's unhealthy to sleep for most of the day when it's unwarranted. Sure, lately my sleep cycle has been tampered with from those late night study sessions and, perhaps more commonly, those late night bar hops. But when I'm hungover from studying (wink wink), I understandably grant myself that nap.

When I sleep to get rid of anxiety, I may be stopping the bad thoughts, but more importantly I'm stopping myself from getting stuff done. This messes up my work schedule and sleep schedule... and even my mental health recovery schedule.

For people with OCD, avoidance is a compulsion. My sleeping is a form of avoidance. If I want to better myself, I have to consciously work on defeating my OCD by being awake and aware.

So what I'm tryna say is... go ahead and take that nap. You deserve it. BUT only take it if there's a legitimate reason to. Mental health conditions have a funny way of goofing up your day-to-day routines.

And as always, have a LOVELY evening.

Be on the look out for more regular posts now that the semester has ended.

Cheers.