I want my OCD to go away

Obsessive compulsive disorder cannot be cured. No matter how much I wish for it to just go away forever, it won't. I can manage it to the best of my ability, but I will always have OCD.

Being at home is triggering. Mostly all of my intrusive thoughts have formed at home. The more downtime I have, the more time I have to think... and to worry... and to overanalyze... and to create ridiculous conspiracies in my head.

I know I keep up this optimistic and happy persona, but I'm only human and can't be happy all the time. I have bad days too... days where I'll lay in my bed and cry, asking why I have to suffer from OCD. I want it to go away forever. I hate it. It sucks. And I have to battle it every single day.

Every time I feel myself falling back into my old routines, I think about how much happier I am when I am in control of my OCD. Knowing that I can successfully manage my disorder is what keeps me hopeful and motivated.

Please, on behalf of myself and all of the other people who suffer from OCD, don't mainstream our disorder. You do not want it. It's not fun. It's not quirky or cute. It's debilitating and a nuisance.

Ah, but at least tomorrow is a new day. Let's make it a good one.

Cheers.

And as always, sleep well.