Let me reassure you of something...

Here’s the thing. I’m not needy. I don’t crave attention in a superficial way. I just want reassurance.

All my life, I’ve put up this confident façade. The truth is, I just don’t like being disliked. I don’t like letting people down. I don’t like failing.

I know, I know…who does?

But I think that this major insecurity is heightened by my OCD. You see… a common symptom of OCD is the seeking of reassurance. That’s why I’ll ask you a million times if my bug bite is from a poisonous spider, or if the bump on my leg is a cancerous tumor, or if someone dislikes me, and so on.

Trust me, I’m aware that these questions are a bit ridiculous, but my brain works a little differently than yours.

This seeking of reassurance affects my personal relationships. I worry that I upset my friends. I worry that I’m messing something up with my significant other.

And at this point in time, I think that the “reassurance thing” is my biggest OCD-related struggle.

I want so badly to just be able to trust that everything is okay. But unfortunately, it’s easier said than done… like a lot of things.

For those of you reading this and who actually are in contact with me on a daily basis, try and understand that my actions come from my OCD and insecurities. And realize that people act the way they do for deeper reasons.

And as always, have a lovely evening.